Please pray for those people in West. The accident was horrific and frightening. Pray for all the selfless first responders and citizens who jumped in to help. God bless you all!
Spring is here and yes it is a time for promises fulfilled and new adventures. I have mentioned before I have spent a lot of my life lately shutting myself off from the real world. Stuck my head in the sand and chose not to deal. No more!
Life is truly an adventure and I am seeking to find the fun in things again and let my self shine in what ever way it manifests itself. I am volunteering more. I am going to the gym in order to keep myself healthy. I am turning off the computer more and tuning into what my kids are doing. I can’t get back the time I squandered away but I can begin making new more positive memories.
I am ashamed it took me so long to wake up to what is real and what is now and what will never be again . God has been working through me because I feel it in my very soul. It has been me who was resistant to it all. It has been a back and forth struggle with God’s calling and my willingness to answer. God has never given up on me. If He had the internal struggle I felt within myself would no longer be there. It is still there . As I feel myself taking baby steps in the right direction the tension within loosens just a little. It’s like a weight being slowly lifted off of my shoulders.
I have stated before I feel my self being led down a path. I feel God laying out baby steps for me to follow. I believe He will slowly reveal where He is leading me. I know writing is one area I am being lead. I know He is calling me to find my purpose and this is how He is revealing it to me.
I am candid about my own personal struggle because I know I am not the only one with this internal turmoil. I hope by sharing my journey others will realize they are not alone. I find strength from the beautiful words written by other Christian bloggers . Their words of encouragement are priceless.
If you are like me and beginning a journey of faith I pray you begin to feel peace within . I pray the waters of turmoil calm and your adventure begins. God’s love is truly amazing .
Today I Smiled
Today I smiled, and all at once
Things didn’t look so bad.
Today I shared with someone else,
A little bit of hope I had.
Today I sang a little song,
And felt my heart grow light.
I walked a happy little mile,
With not a cloud in sight.
Today I worked with what I had,
And longed for nothing more,
And what had seemed like only weeds,
Were flowers at my door.
Today I loved a little more,
And complained a little less.
And in the giving of myself,
I forgot my weariness.
~ Author Unknown ~
It’s Monday and starting the week off slow. My youngest has been sick all weekend and is still not feeling well. I was all dressed up Friday night and about to leave to go a friends house for monthly bunco. My poor little man came in and said his chest hurt. He still can’t recognize an asthma attack. I held him close and gave him his inhaler and he began to feel his chest loosen some, but he was red hot. I asked him ” Do want mommy to stay home with you tonight ? ” He smiled from ear to ear and said “yes mommy I would like you to stay and take care of me.” Dad is a very capable guy and he was in good hands but he wanted mommy.He is nearly 9 and is getting very independent. Feels good to know you are still needed no matter how independent they become. I was blessed with kids who love family.
This got me to thinking what is it we do as moms? Traditionally we moms are the nurturers and dads are the protectors. With that said don’t ever discount what I call being a “Mamma Bear”. Mama Bears are the ones who go to bat on there kids behalf and always see they are cared for and protected. We are the ones who have to attitude ” you’re gonna have to get past me to get to my child and that won’t be easy ” Fierce in spirit but tender in heart.
We have a big responsibility as moms but don’t think for second any of us consider our children to be burdens and obligations. It’s way more then duty it is our God Given purpose. We clothe, feed, teach life lessons. We guide them morally and emotionally. We are not over worked employees. There is no over worked under paid because it’s not a job it’s just life. We do the things we do because we want to not because we have to. No matter where we go in life, or if we are employed or stay at home moms we will always be mom first.
My Friday evening went on with my son laying down and me reading a book to him as he read along. I babied him all evening . I did what momma bears do. I made sure he was safe and well taken care of and left alone to rest.
You Still Have Hope
If you can look at the sunset and smile, then you still have hope.
If you can find beauty in the colors of a small flower, then you still have hope.
If you can find pleasure in the movement of a butterfly, then you still have hope.
If the smile of a child can still warm your heart, then you still have hope.
If you can see the good in other people, then you still have hope.
If the rain breaking on a roof top can still lull you to sleep, then you still have hope.
If the sight of a rainbow still makes you stop and stare in wonder, then you still have hope.
If the soft fur of a favored pet still feels pleasant under your fingertips, then you still have hope.
If you meet new people with a trace of excitement and optimism, then you still have hope.
If you give people the benefit of a doubt, then you still have hope.
If you still offer your hand in friendship to others that have touched your life, then you still have hope.
If receiving an unexpected card or letter still brings a pleasant surprise, then you still have hope.
If the suffering of others still fills you with pain and frustration, then you still have hope.
If you refuse to let a friendship die, or accept that it must end, then you still have hope.
If you look forward to a time or place of quiet and reflection, then you still have hope.
If you still buy the ornaments, put up the Christmas tree or cook the supper, then you still have hope.
If you can look to the past and smile, then you still have hope.
If, when faced with the bad, when told everything is futile, you can still look up and end the conversation with the phrase…”yeah…BUT.,” then you still have hope.
Hope is such a marvelous thing. It bends, it twists, it sometimes hides, but rarely does it break. It sustains us when nothing else can. It gives us reason to continue and courage to move ahead, when we tell ourselves we’d rather give in.
Hope puts a smile on our face
when the heart cannot manage.
Hope puts our feet on the path when our eyes cannot see it.
Hope moves us to act
when our souls are confused of the direction.
Hope is a wonderful thing, something to be cherished and nurtured, and something that will refresh us in return.
And it can be found in each of us, and it can bring light into the darkest of places.
Never lose hope !