Spring is here and yes it is a time for promises fulfilled and new adventures. I have mentioned before I have spent a lot of my life lately shutting myself off from the real world. Stuck my head in the sand and chose not to deal. No more!
Life is truly an adventure and I am seeking to find the fun in things again and let my self shine in what ever way it manifests itself. I am volunteering more. I am going to the gym in order to keep myself healthy. I am turning off the computer more and tuning into what my kids are doing. I can’t get back the time I squandered away but I can begin making new more positive memories.
I am ashamed it took me so long to wake up to what is real and what is now and what will never be again . God has been working through me because I feel it in my very soul. It has been me who was resistant to it all. It has been a back and forth struggle with God’s calling and my willingness to answer. God has never given up on me. If He had the internal struggle I felt within myself would no longer be there. It is still there . As I feel myself taking baby steps in the right direction the tension within loosens just a little. It’s like a weight being slowly lifted off of my shoulders.
I have stated before I feel my self being led down a path. I feel God laying out baby steps for me to follow. I believe He will slowly reveal where He is leading me. I know writing is one area I am being lead. I know He is calling me to find my purpose and this is how He is revealing it to me.
I am candid about my own personal struggle because I know I am not the only one with this internal turmoil. I hope by sharing my journey others will realize they are not alone. I find strength from the beautiful words written by other Christian bloggers . Their words of encouragement are priceless.
If you are like me and beginning a journey of faith I pray you begin to feel peace within . I pray the waters of turmoil calm and your adventure begins. God’s love is truly amazing .