Posts tagged ‘Christianity’
Yet again I have not been very active on my blog. Follow through is obviously a habit you have to develop. I am still working on mine.
I find myself these days in a very subdued mood. I am lost in my own my own mind. As I write that phrase being ” lost in my mind” a song comes to mind. It’s by a group called The Head and the Heart aptly titled ” Lost in my mind”. That’s exactly what I have been doing. If you see a pattern with me associating everything in my life with certain pieces of music , well that’s me. Music may it be Christian or secular moves shapes and speaks to us on so many levels. In my life I have found strength through music, reflection, inspiration, joy and sorrow. Every aspect of my life can be tied to music. No, I am not a musician just a music lover.
Back to being lost. When we find ourselves deeply involved in our own thoughts are we truly lost? Sometimes I think yes and sometimes I think being buried deep in your own thoughts can be a way to find the path out of the mazes we build in our own lives. Our society is faced paced and impatient. Rapid computers, Iphones, Ipads, high speed internet, express check out lanes, fast food. You know what I am talking about. We have set ourselves up for dissatisfaction with all this instant gratification. So sometimes we get lost. Our paths are not clear.
We end up confused and overwhelmed. Slowing down and pressing the pause button on life so to speak can help a confused mind find clarity. Slowing down is hard for me. I turn around twice and a month has flown by and I get overwhelmed with the woulda, could ya, should ya’s.
Funny I beat myself up for not doing more but I never reprimand myself for not sitting and just be with myself for a while. Let myself get lost in my own mind. Not tv, computers, radios just me sitting or laying down thinking.
As I have been doing a lot of sitting and thinking my thoughts are with people around me. I know what is wrong and broken in my own life and I visit those issues often, but lately others around me have their own set of of issues they are dealing with. My mind has been with them. I guess you can say I have a ” quiet concern.”
I will continue my quiet reflections and prayers. Maybe being lost in your mind isn’t a bad thing but a step back to sanity and reason. It has been said , to know one’s self is to love one’s self. I may have the quote mixed up a bit but the meaning is clear. The ability to be satisfied and comfortable with who you are is something we all should strive for. It’s when we can sit and just be still that God’s voice is the clearest.
The standoff in Alabama has me sad and heart sick. I fear for the child’s safety. Please say a prayer for this young man. A 5 year old should not have to be put through such terror. I pray that the innocent child is set free, unharmed. Please pass this on and let’s begin a circle of prayer for the child. I have a news link at the bottom if you are unaware of the situation.
I try to take really good care of my health these days. With the major flu out break, that seems to be nation wide that can be tricky. I woke this morning to a cough and sore throat. No wonder because here in North Texas our weather has been going back and forth a lot. We are cold now but a couple of days ago we hit around 80°F. Yes,in January!
I do try to balance out my diet. Lots of fruits and fresh vegetables. I am a strong believer that vitamins and nutrients are better coming from food then from supplements.
I have made lots of beneficial changes in my life over the last year. I have sought to nurture every aspect of my life. Physically, mentally and most of all spiritually. You cant just work on one area of your life. I found this out through hard knocks. When you concentrate on one area only then you risk ignoring others facets of your life.
God must always be the center of all you do in life. Take Him out of the picture and you become spiritually deficient. You nurture your physical health by eating right and exercising. You nurture your mental health with rest, relaxation and taking time to have stress free activities with friends and family. God is in all of that and more.
Spiritual health is nurtured through prayer, discipleship, small groups of friends who support each other in Christian growth. It’s not enough to just read His word. As Christians we are never done growing. In order to grow we have to nurture it always.
“A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.” Proverbs 17:22
I love Chris Tomlin’s music. I had the fortune some years back to see him in concert. I had never been to a Christian music concert. I remember the vibe all the over the outdoor concert venue being so loving. It was moving for me . I knew some of his music at the time. This concert was the very first time I heard his Amazing Grace ( my chains are gone). To this day that song rings in my heart and soul. I was moved beyond words by that song. Have a blessed Sunday!!
As I continue to struggle with my own health and battles with depression I look many places in life for courage and inspiration as well as comfort. I have my days I get wrapped up in feeling sorry for myself. I lose sight that I was blessed that I only had a mini stroke and not a massive one. I lose sight that because I was under such tight doctors care that other health issues were caught and are being treated. The stroke was really a blessing in disguise.
I have never been as actually scared as I was that day. I sat there at home in denial that I was having a stroke. God was with me though. He put angels in my path in the form of a loving church family. I didn’t call church as it was happening. It didn’t cross my mind. I am so use to being alone with very little extended family. I never even thought about my church family. They thought about me. God put a member of my church outside of ER that day. She was doing her job as a police officer and saw me and reached out on my behalf and alerted the church of my situation. What are the odds that she would be taking a statement in ER at the time I was walking in, scared out of my wits?
It was then I realized I was squandering my life away waiting for something good to happen to me. I was sitting back for years depressed about my situation in life and not doing anything about it. I was wasting years of happiness and it was of my own doing.
My late mother didn’t have an easy life at all. She grew up in war torn Germany under the Hitler Regime. She moved a lot as a child so her father could get work and keep food on the table. She was sent to do a her year of service ( as was required by law) at age 14 to a family well placed in the Nazi Party. The family was cruel and abusive to her. She was forced to live there and was treated like a slave she once told me. She rarely got to visit her family. She was nearly suicidal. Life was not easy at all but it was all she knew.
This being said my mom knew how to make the best of things and find a way to enjoy herself even when things didn’t go quite right. She lived in the moment and appreciated what she had here in the United States. She loved her adopted country and gave back to it as a volunteer with the VA Hospital in Dallas. Her example is the legacy she left behind.
Of all the life lessons a mother teaches her kids, it’s the example you set that leaves the most lasting impression. I have fallen short in my life with my own kids. My examples haven’t always been good. I get frustrated with my kids then catch myself. I realize they are only emulating me. If I want things to change I need to start with me.
It took nearly being taken away from my kids to wake me up to make changes and live life. Make the best of the world I have been given and stop spending time depressed on what I don’t have. I know God is working in my life in His own way. At the age of 45 I am learning to live again. I am slowly exploring who it is that I am. I know we are blessed with gifts and graces. I still don’t know what mine are but I am enjoying the ride and look forward to where it is that I end up in life. It has to be something positive. I just know in my heart it will be.
My journey is just beginning. Have you began yours yet?
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:6
I came across a story that I wanted to share. I am not sure who wrote this or if it’s a true story or not.
“One Saturday night, a pastor was working late and decided to call his wife before he left for home. It was about 10:00 PM, but his wife didn’t answer the phone. The pastor let it ring many times. He thought it was odd that she didn’t answer but decided to wrap up a few things and try again in a few minutes. When he tried again, she answered right away. He asked her why she hadn’t answered before, and she said that it hadn’t rung at their house. They brushed it off as a fluke and went on their merry ways.
The following Monday, the pastor received a call at the church office, which was the phone that he’d used that Saturday night. The man that he spoke with wanted to know why he’d called on Saturday night. The pastor couldn’t figure out what the man was talking about.
Then the man said, “It rang and rang, but I didn’t answer.”
The pastor remembered the mishap and apologized for disturbing him, explaining that he’d intended to call his wife.
The man said, “That’s okay. Let me tell you my story. You see, I was planning to commit suicide on Saturday night, but before I did, I prayed, ‘God if you’re there, and you don’t want me to do this, give me a sign now.’ At that point, my phone started to ring. I looked at the caller ID, and it said, ‘Almighty God’. I was afraid to answer!”
The church that the pastor attends is called Almighty God Tabernacle.”
In my life I know I have been called many times and been given wake up calls and signs He is with me. I wonder though how many I have missed because I was too busy to answer the call. Sometimes we just choose not to answer even thought the “phone” is ringing loud and clear. Is it fear of the unknown or a fear to step beyond our comfort zones? Probably. I know it varies from person to person. This story puts me in mind of a old routine by Jerry Jordan called a Phone call from God. We had the album and mom would play it and we’d crack up.
This nearly 15 minutes long but funny all the way through.