People come and go from our lives. It’s those people who shape us, mold us and help us to define our selves. Some are good influences and some are bad or indifferent. Positive or negative their footprint is forever etched in our souls.
I want to thank those people in my life that have shown me love and kindness because in that they taught me to love others more then myself. I want to thank those who have used my kindness for there own purposes because they taught me to be wary. I want to thank those who have come to my aid both emotionally and physically for they have taught me the satisfaction of serving others. I want to thank those who have lied to me because they have taught me to seek truth in all things. I want to thank those in my life who have sold me short because they only made me more determined to show them they are wrong. I want to thank those who have touched my heart on any level because it reassures me I am capable of love and empathy. I want to thank those who have hurt me because in the end I came out stronger then before.
To all of you I pray God touches your lives and continues to bless you. I love you all.
“There’s a hallway in my heart and mind and I walk there from time to time. Revisiting footprints etched deep in my soul. Some of the memories are brief. Filled with love , sorrow and grief. Others linger on. I find myself thinking back to the point of losing track of the things I am grateful for in my life. I thank all who have walked the halls in my heart and may a tiny little part of my love remain with you today. This you may not know, but it’s your influence that’s helped me grow into the woman I am today. ”
Owe no one anything, except to love each other, for the one who loves another has fulfilled the law. Romans 13:8
I try to take really good care of my health these days. With the major flu out break, that seems to be nation wide that can be tricky. I woke this morning to a cough and sore throat. No wonder because here in North Texas our weather has been going back and forth a lot. We are cold now but a couple of days ago we hit around 80°F. Yes,in January!
I do try to balance out my diet. Lots of fruits and fresh vegetables. I am a strong believer that vitamins and nutrients are better coming from food then from supplements.
I have made lots of beneficial changes in my life over the last year. I have sought to nurture every aspect of my life. Physically, mentally and most of all spiritually. You cant just work on one area of your life. I found this out through hard knocks. When you concentrate on one area only then you risk ignoring others facets of your life.
God must always be the center of all you do in life. Take Him out of the picture and you become spiritually deficient. You nurture your physical health by eating right and exercising. You nurture your mental health with rest, relaxation and taking time to have stress free activities with friends and family. God is in all of that and more.
Spiritual health is nurtured through prayer, discipleship, small groups of friends who support each other in Christian growth. It’s not enough to just read His word. As Christians we are never done growing. In order to grow we have to nurture it always.
“A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.” Proverbs 17:22
It’s Wednesday. I am having one of my more manic days.I get frustrated when it feelslike I take two steps forward and then three steps back. Somethings are out of our control. Lifting them up for God seems relatively easy in theory but in practice it’s hard. Why is that? It’s hard to admit when things are out of your control and you need help. It’s easier to shoulder all of your anxieties, fears, frustrations all on your own. It’s what most of us do. If you are like me then you can be a powder keg waiting to explode, With every little stress and burden the powder becomes unstable and ready to explode at any time. Once it gets like that the tiniest sparks can set it off. I have been known to get mad and worked up over stuff and the truth is something else is really at the heart of my anger or sadness.
How do you cope? I am a black belt. An out of shape black belt but still skilled and well taught. I would give anything to train again like I use to train. I coped with life much better then. I miss being able to pound out my worries and frustrations on a heavy bag or in a sparring class. I miss the release it gave me. Yes I can train on my own and I do some but it’s not the same. Finances and a medical condition make it hard to go back.
So much is out of my hands in life. It is eating at me that I have to depend on outside elements for day to day sustenance .By that I am speaking metaphorically. I feel like a caged animal pacing back and forth wanting release even though the cage has been home for quite a while. I do pray to God and he knows my plight and challenges. I want an opportunity to break free of my cage and be free to build my own happy future with God’s guidance, I need this for me. I sit and spin my wheels not knowing where to start. Prayer is all I got, It is hard to be faithful Christian and not get lost in the poor poor me syndrome.
I find it hard to have serenity. I have read and reread this poem/ prayer so many times. It helps sooth the inner pain I tend to put my self through.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Texas Man Reunited With Dog Who Had Been Missing After Crash « CBS Dallas / Fort Worth.
This a touching story. Little blessings can arise out of tragic situations. God shows us always that even in our darkest hours He is with us. So many loving people willing to help this man and his family out. God must truly be working through them.
I love Chris Tomlin’s music. I had the fortune some years back to see him in concert. I had never been to a Christian music concert. I remember the vibe all the over the outdoor concert venue being so loving. It was moving for me . I knew some of his music at the time. This concert was the very first time I heard his Amazing Grace ( my chains are gone). To this day that song rings in my heart and soul. I was moved beyond words by that song. Have a blessed Sunday!!
As I continue to struggle with my own health and battles with depression I look many places in life for courage and inspiration as well as comfort. I have my days I get wrapped up in feeling sorry for myself. I lose sight that I was blessed that I only had a mini stroke and not a massive one. I lose sight that because I was under such tight doctors care that other health issues were caught and are being treated. The stroke was really a blessing in disguise.
I have never been as actually scared as I was that day. I sat there at home in denial that I was having a stroke. God was with me though. He put angels in my path in the form of a loving church family. I didn’t call church as it was happening. It didn’t cross my mind. I am so use to being alone with very little extended family. I never even thought about my church family. They thought about me. God put a member of my church outside of ER that day. She was doing her job as a police officer and saw me and reached out on my behalf and alerted the church of my situation. What are the odds that she would be taking a statement in ER at the time I was walking in, scared out of my wits?
It was then I realized I was squandering my life away waiting for something good to happen to me. I was sitting back for years depressed about my situation in life and not doing anything about it. I was wasting years of happiness and it was of my own doing.
My late mother didn’t have an easy life at all. She grew up in war torn Germany under the Hitler Regime. She moved a lot as a child so her father could get work and keep food on the table. She was sent to do a her year of service ( as was required by law) at age 14 to a family well placed in the Nazi Party. The family was cruel and abusive to her. She was forced to live there and was treated like a slave she once told me. She rarely got to visit her family. She was nearly suicidal. Life was not easy at all but it was all she knew.
This being said my mom knew how to make the best of things and find a way to enjoy herself even when things didn’t go quite right. She lived in the moment and appreciated what she had here in the United States. She loved her adopted country and gave back to it as a volunteer with the VA Hospital in Dallas. Her example is the legacy she left behind.
Of all the life lessons a mother teaches her kids, it’s the example you set that leaves the most lasting impression. I have fallen short in my life with my own kids. My examples haven’t always been good. I get frustrated with my kids then catch myself. I realize they are only emulating me. If I want things to change I need to start with me.
It took nearly being taken away from my kids to wake me up to make changes and live life. Make the best of the world I have been given and stop spending time depressed on what I don’t have. I know God is working in my life in His own way. At the age of 45 I am learning to live again. I am slowly exploring who it is that I am. I know we are blessed with gifts and graces. I still don’t know what mine are but I am enjoying the ride and look forward to where it is that I end up in life. It has to be something positive. I just know in my heart it will be.
My journey is just beginning. Have you began yours yet?
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:6
It’s the end of the first semester of school. My kids get a 4 day weekend. I am just as excited as they are. So as I prepare to have a weekend of fun with the kids I thought a little humor was in order!